“The time has come,” the walrus said, “to talk of many things…”

Philosophical thoughts on life, the universe, and everything.

Research paper January 22, 2008

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So it’s that time….the time when I get to write a research paper.  I’m actually kinda excited — yes, I know, I’m ridiculous, but I am! — because I enjoy writing papers and I’m really super excited about my research subject…chaos theory.Here’s the proposal I sent to my teacher:

  Is it possible for math to have a theological impact?  Thanks to an obscure theory, the answer appears to be yes.  Chaos Theory describes a mathematical phenomenon that can best be described as “unpredictable predictability.”   It occurs in mathematical functions that seem to be random but, in reality, are deterministic.  Chaos Theory, a newly popular theory, has an extremely wide range of applications, including applications in climatology, psychology, chemistry, astronomy, economy, physics, biology, meteorology, and even theology.  So far, Chaos Theory has been applied only to Pantheism and the New Age Movement.  I would like to research the theological implications of Chaos Theory, especially as it relates to the different schools of Calvinism and Arminianism and their views of predestination.   

I’m really excited about this whole thing.  The hilarious thing about it is that my teacher was all like “hey I don’t want you to get all caught up in the New Age movement and all that…” Which, I mean, it’s nice of her to be concerned and all that, but I….there is seriously no way that that would happen.  I am about as reverse of New Age as they come.  Plus I learned loads about that kind of thing over the summer when I took a summer class on “God, Humanity, and Knowledge.”
In other news, I’ve heard back from Taylor’s admissions about going to Purdue.  They say it’s OK as long as I get some stuff signed and keep a 3.2 GPA in my college classes….shouldn’t be that bad.
That’s about it. 

Waiting for College December 15, 2007

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I am a senior in high school, and I’ve been accepted to Taylor University, which is officially the best place in the world. Most of the people I really care about are either at Taylor this year or will be at Taylor next year. Right now, I’m kind of in limbo.  I want to be done with high school and moved on to college, but I can’t.  At the same time, I don’t want to lose contact with all my high school friends.  It’s annoying. Also I’m applying for a scholarship that means a full ride to any college in my state which would be wonderful…but I don’t know if I’ll get it.  But it would be really helpful for my parents so that they can pay. ALSO, I’m going to go to the local university, where my mom is a professor, and take summer classes there…but I’m not sure whether or not it’ll mess up my acceptance to Taylor…it’s slightly messy at the moment.  But the plus about the local university is that 12 credit hours are only $874 which is ridiculously cheap.  That doesn’t include textbooks or anything but STILL! So, I have many decisions to make.  Fun! In other news, it’s snowing, and I just came back from the Keller Competition concert, and my sister is now in love with the pianist who played. 


Job 3 and Snow December 4, 2007

So today is my day to write about Job 3.  This is the first chapter that Job begins to question various things.

Job curses the day he was born in this chapter.  The language here is highly poetic.  He talks about where he would be if he had never been born or had died at birth — it’s great literarily.

The most interesting verse in this chapter is verse 23.  “Why is light given to a man whose way is hidden, and whom God has hedged in?”  He’s questioning the meaning of suffering in this verse.  Now, since I already know the end of the story, I know what it is that the ultimate answer to this question is.  But it’s interesting to know that Job struggled with it.  Job is always presented as a righteous man…but he also questions things like the meaning of suffering.  It’s not just those of us who really aren’t all that righteous.

It’s also interesting that through all of this Job doesn’t commit suicide.  He keeps saying, “It would be better if I were dead!” but he never actually kills himself.  It’s kind of intruiging.  It also tells us quite a bit about the ethics of suicide, I think.  Job had every reason to kill himself, according to today’s society.  Many people in less desparate positions have committed suicide, but Job — who had lost everything he had except his wife and his three friends — didn’t.  Job is counted as a righteous man.  It’s interesting that he didn’t.  It seriously does tell us a lot about the ethics of suicide.

Well, that’s all for Job 3.

Beyond the “Read More”:  thoughts on snow



In The Absense of Failure December 1, 2007

Filed under: Poetry — ithewalrus @ 10:43 pm
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This is a poem I wrote…it was intended to be an application “essay” for Wheaton college. But then I realized that Wheaton doesn’t have my major! Oh dear! I still like the poem though.

Mount Everest

no longer an option.
How should I spread my wings?
flying through a realm of possibilities
glancing over each

one in particular catches my eye
playing my violin my Lionheart
forever and ever and ever always
in symphonies in soundtracks in worship in bands
recording composing improvising creating
wheaton oberlin sherwood new england conservatory
royal college of music
living on music
But is music me?

another glistening possibility
shining from below
I dive in, examining–
preaching all over the country
seeing thousands come to Christ
bringing millions into the kingdom
But is evangelism me?

yet another, glinting in the sky
far above me this time
space travel to the unexplored heights
discovering God’s creation anew
for the first time again
seeing things completely new
and yet always there
jupiter saturn neptune pluto
and beyond where there’s just me
and God
and a metal flying vessel
alone and content
But is space me?

where is this shining from?
everywhere all at once
travel the world
visit every single country
learn the language
the culture
the people
seeing God’s artistry in its infinite
neverending countless innumerable
forms of landscape
mountain ocean desert forest lake prarie tundra ice steppe swamp wetland volcano
encountering everywhere under the sun
But is travel me?

one last possibility
straight ahead of me
what can it be?
in a sea of mountains
rising above all others
the highest place on earth
Mt. Everest.
“what is the
of climbing mt. everest?”
“it is no use.
the struggle of this mountain
is the struggle of
life itself.
what we get out of this adventure
striving upward
exploring the utmost of God’s handiwork
closest to God
seeking for Him
and finding Him in the midst of my journey
to the top of the world
and finding the joy of life of Him
on the way
But is seeking me?
y e s .

“What would you do if you knew you could not fail?”
I would climb Mt. Everest.